Without even hesitating, I can honestly say that 2015 is the absolute worst year I have ever lived. 2012 was bad, 2014 was horrible, and at the time, I thought that one was the worst. But now that I've been through this, just... wow. It takes the cake.
Is this it? Is this really life? No! This isn't life! This isn't anything even representing life! But it's life for me! It's pretty pathetic, but it's all I got! My parents nearly got a divorce! My old college tutor died! The communities I'm a part of are falling apart! There's no more Leonard Nimoy! World War III is happening right outside my door! And someone's saying, "well, that's a pretty sad existence," well, yeah, it is a pretty sad existence, you know?! This, THIS!!!! THIS IS MY LIFE!!!! I'M A HUMAN BEING, AND ALL THIS IS MY LIFE!! And it's collapsing in front of me. You know, wouldn't it be great, I mean somebody's just like, "Hey, why don't you come over on vacation with us?" I don't know if there's a place in the world where there isn't the likelihood of a ninja appearing to hack your face off with a rusty saw, but you know what?! It'd be nice! It'd be nice just ONE DAY to go somewhere where my troubles can't follow, sleep in peace for once! Or at least a weekend where there's no chance of my own father having a violent relapse, as he is known to when exposed to a laptop! THAT'S MY LIFE! EVEN THOUGH, EVERY DAY I EXIST, I WISH IT WASN'T MY LIFE! I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO DO THIS BULLSHIT, AS EACH ONE OF MY FRIENDS LEAVE ME, AND WHY DOES IT HAPPEN?! WHY DO THEY KEEP LEAVING?! BECAUSE THEY'RE SICK, AND I'M STUPID! THAT'S THE WAY IT IS! THAT'S THE WAY IT'S ALWAYS GONNA BE! THERE IS NO CHANGE, THERE IS NO FUTURE, THERE IS NO PAST! THE PRESENT IS A JOKE! EVERYTHING IS HELL! MY LIFE IS HELL! THIS IS THE WORST THING A HUMAN BEING COULD EVER GO THROUGH!!!!!!
I mean, what's the point in trying to change anything, right? I am where I am, nothing's going to make it any different. It's not like I could just go back in time and alert my young self of the hell that awaits him.
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CCCLXXXI: Nightmare!
Oh, I had a terrible nightmare where DeviantArt was driven entirely by points. You had to spend points to do just about anything! Thank goodness that don't happen in real life!
CCCLXXX: Ohh. Bloody hell.
I've just now been sorting through the stuff I put by my bed next to the radiator. Unfortunately the radiator leaked at one point, and now a lot of my artwork has been stained with ink running off other pages. Fortunately most of the good stuff was already scanned in beforehand, so... there's that. But now I've got to shuffle through the rest of the junk I put there, so most of it can end up in the recycle bin. There's quite a few things I might end up taking to the car boot sale too.
On the plus side, there's enough material here to do another archive run! So that's what I'm going to do. Maybe I'll clean up one or two and finish them proper
CCCLXXIX: Thought of the day
I watched Flight of the Navigator at school once. At the beginning I thought one of the characters mentioned the TARDIS. Unfortunately it turned out to be an ableist slur.
CCCLXXVIII: Question of the Day
Why do the names of most US TV and radio stations begin with a "K" or "W"?
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Seems I'm the only one who cares about you. And besides - you're almost like me now. Always angry, sad and grumpy.