Cut a long story short - it can't go on like this. The otherwise respectable mentors of mine have piled a workload onto me that is beyond my capability. And I'm supposed to finish it tomorrow! That's preposterous!
You know... someone once told me: "Your first year at uni should be really tough. This is where you learn how learn how to self motivate, and generally get your **** together." Evidently, I've blown it. I still can't motivate myself. Even when I lie! I seem to lack the discipline required in the job. I can't even hold an interest in one thing for any longer than a month! It's like, I get obsessed with something, get bored of it, get obsessed with something else, get bored with that, get obsessed with something else, get bored with that, on and on and on and on! Because of this, merely getting the strength to work on my stuff is arduous in itself.
I was also told this: "If game development isn't YOUR PASSION and you think it's tedious and boring after all, pick a new industry immediately." Well thank you very much! I think I will pick a new industry: unemployment!